Dec 31, 2009

2009 - 2010

Three passions have governed my life. The longings for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind. ~ Bertrand Russell

FIVE Inspiring Readings 2009

1. The Philosophy of Andy Warhol: From A to B and Back Again (Andy Warhol)
2. Maniac Eyeball: The Unspeakable Confessions of Salvador Dali (Salvador Dali & Andre Parinaud)
3. Vintage Woolf: Selected Letters (Virginia Woolf)
4. The Book Thief (Markus Zusak)
5. Snow (Orhan Pamuk)

Dec 28, 2009

HIDUP bukan sekadar membaca forwarded emel. Dan, ia lebih besar dari berfesbuk.

Shanghai Baby (by Wei Hui): Versi Taf Teh
25: Cinta atau Kemahuan?

‘Janji. Janji pada aku yang kau akan terus melukis. Aku yakin kau akan menjadi seorang pelukis yang hebat.’

‘Aku tak pernah memikirkan tentang itu,’ Tian Tian bersuara. ‘Dan… aku tak pasti jika aku mahu menjadi seorang pelukis terkenal.’ Itu memang benar. Dia tak pernah mempunyai impian – dan tak akan mempunyai impian selama-lamanya.

‘Ini bukan pasal menjadi terkenal. Ini akan memberi kau sesuatu untuk dibuat, sesuatu yang akan membuat kau bahgia,’ aku cuba jelaskan. Tetapi, ada satu, ya satu ayat yang aku cuba sembunyikan – Dan ini akan memisahkan dia dari dadah dan ketidak-prihatinan pada kehidupan. Kemahuan untuk menjadi seorang pelukis hebat akan memberi Tian Tian fokus!

Dec 27, 2009

Liberalism in writing: The art of masculine roses and feminine thorns

Re-evaluating Woolf’s Androgynous Mind (by Elizabeth Wright)

“…A way of thinking that would enable women and by implication men to write as themselves, still in a sexed body, but without the attendant prejudices and discriminations that are connected to the body by society. To write without consciousness of sex is to see the piece of work for itself not as its author… Woolf is arguing here that sex should enter the mind and, through the medium of its androgynous thinking patterns, re-emerge incandescent and unconscious of itself on the other side.”

“Woolf leaves the reader in no doubt that the androgynous mind is the creative ideal, but what marks a text as the production of an androgynous mind? How do women avoid writing as women constructed by patriarchy, or avoid writing like men in the service of patriarchy? How do men prevent themselves from writing angrily about women and pompously or egotistically about themselves? In A Room of One’s Own Woolf demonstrates the turgidity of the male sentence.”

“The strength of language and form as a means of realising Woolf’s androgynous vision lies in the fact that “masculine and feminine can be exchanged, or travestied, because words can be.”

Dec 26, 2009

Vintage Woolf: Selected Letters

“I mean life has to be sloughed: has to be faced: to be rejected; then accepted on new terms with rapture.” ~Virginia Woolf

Letters to C. B.

Why do you torment me with half uttered and ambiguous sentences? My presence is ‘vivid and strange and bewildering’… I shrank to my narrowest limits, and you found me more than usually complex, and contained. Chivalrous as you are, however, you took infinite pains with me, and I am very grateful.

I expect your praise is immensely exaggerated: you (I guess) have so much more of the dramatic instinct than I have that you see it into my scenes. But I take praise very gratefully; long for some assurance that all my words aren’t varpour. They accumulate behind one in such masses- dreadful, if they are nothing but muddy water… I have a blind faith in my power of making sentences presentable, so that I leave bald patches gaily, to furbish up next winter… I want to bring out a stir of live men and women, against a background. I think I am quite right to attempt it, but it is immensely difficult TO DO… you have no notion how pale and transparent it reads to me sometimes – though I write with heat enough.

Letters to H. W.

Aren’t you singularly vain, for a man of your reputation? I should have thought, selling ten million copies in a month, you would have long ago disregarded Virginia – perhaps you have – Perhaps it is only your sublime urbanity, and the quality which I most adore and that is man-of-the-worldliness, that lets her think that you care what she says.

In fact I sometimes think only autobiography is literature – novels are what we peel off, and come at last to the core, which is only you or me. And I think this little book (The Apple Tree) – why so small? – peels off all the things I don’t like in fiction and leaves the thing I do like – you.

Dec 17, 2009

Parking Space

They refuse to rest and keep looking for parking space. They found one, but refused to settle with their first choice and started to search for another parking space. ‘They’ are all inputs that we devour through out the day, combines with the accumulated inputs from the very lengthy knowledge searching process. I doubt they will ever comply to my hiatus command because at night, when you try to rest them, they are too busy cataloging themselves or pairing with other partners. They work swiftly, trying to fit into the correct parking space which generates a very high energy vibration in your brain wave.

I mentioned to Dr. Roy regarding this 'parking space' analogy which is quite burdening and has disturbed my life for the past 3 or 4 months.

Dr Roy: “Etheric June. Etheric!!!”

Ok... I need Proforol!!!


"In its early stages, insomnia is almost an oasis in which those who have to think or suffer darkly take refuge." ~Sidonie Gabrielle Colette

"Insomnia is a gross feeder. It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking." ~Clifton Fadiman

“If a man had as many ideas during the day as he does when he has insomnia, he'd make a fortune.” ~Griff Niblack


"Nothing cures insomnia like the realization that it's time to get up." ~Author Unknown.

Dec 15, 2009

Meredith Dittmar & Megan Whitmarsh

(pencil, marker, gouache & ink on paper)

Q: Let's start with you describing your process of creating a new piece.
A: My process is always changing. Typically I collect images, diagrams, math and words and surround myself with them before I begin a set of pieces - though once I start working I only refer to them rarely. I throw it all into the BRAIN BLENDER and see what comes out.

Q: What are you really excited about right now?
A: The hadron collider. Networks. Fractals. Mycology. Integral theory. Adyashanti. Stop motion. Alpine backcountry. My bike.

Dec 7, 2009


Breakfast at Tiffany

All I need is one large mug of caffeine (preferably an instant 3-in-1) and two to three hours of reading at my favorite corner in my tiny bedroom, accompanied by a second-hand metal desk and books, with a lot of books. This would be my mandatory breakfast routine. Nothing is astonishing as to be self-absorbed with inspiring words in the morning and momentarily vacate myself from actual responsibilities of the days especially working.

It feels so good to be capsulated by wordssssssssss.

Never Ask for Free Trial

Recently, an ungrateful question attacked my mind. “How would it be/feel if I lost one of my senses or any body part that would make be incapable of reading?”

Several days after this ridiculous thought lingered my life, God gave me eye inflammation as a free test. My reddish eyes are painful with a constant aching and I’m now reading (and writing) in mild difficulty, still I can read and write.

I will pray to God, will beg Him to bestow a perpetual ability to read and write. Dear God The Mighty Creator, have mercy on me and please, please, please forgive me...

Dec 1, 2009

To Travese A New Hiway

4 Rules of Discomfort Zone

Welcome irregularity
Revamp orthodoxy
Commercialize taboo
Against cliché
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