Dec 31, 2009

2009 - 2010

Three passions have governed my life. The longings for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind. ~ Bertrand Russell

FIVE Inspiring Readings 2009

1. The Philosophy of Andy Warhol: From A to B and Back Again (Andy Warhol)
2. Maniac Eyeball: The Unspeakable Confessions of Salvador Dali (Salvador Dali & Andre Parinaud)
3. Vintage Woolf: Selected Letters (Virginia Woolf)
4. The Book Thief (Markus Zusak)
5. Snow (Orhan Pamuk)

Dec 28, 2009

HIDUP bukan sekadar membaca forwarded emel. Dan, ia lebih besar dari berfesbuk.

Shanghai Baby (by Wei Hui): Versi Taf Teh
25: Cinta atau Kemahuan?

‘Janji. Janji pada aku yang kau akan terus melukis. Aku yakin kau akan menjadi seorang pelukis yang hebat.’

‘Aku tak pernah memikirkan tentang itu,’ Tian Tian bersuara. ‘Dan… aku tak pasti jika aku mahu menjadi seorang pelukis terkenal.’ Itu memang benar. Dia tak pernah mempunyai impian – dan tak akan mempunyai impian selama-lamanya.

‘Ini bukan pasal menjadi terkenal. Ini akan memberi kau sesuatu untuk dibuat, sesuatu yang akan membuat kau bahgia,’ aku cuba jelaskan. Tetapi, ada satu, ya satu ayat yang aku cuba sembunyikan – Dan ini akan memisahkan dia dari dadah dan ketidak-prihatinan pada kehidupan. Kemahuan untuk menjadi seorang pelukis hebat akan memberi Tian Tian fokus!

Dec 27, 2009

Liberalism in writing: The art of masculine roses and feminine thorns

Re-evaluating Woolf’s Androgynous Mind (by Elizabeth Wright)

“…A way of thinking that would enable women and by implication men to write as themselves, still in a sexed body, but without the attendant prejudices and discriminations that are connected to the body by society. To write without consciousness of sex is to see the piece of work for itself not as its author… Woolf is arguing here that sex should enter the mind and, through the medium of its androgynous thinking patterns, re-emerge incandescent and unconscious of itself on the other side.”

“Woolf leaves the reader in no doubt that the androgynous mind is the creative ideal, but what marks a text as the production of an androgynous mind? How do women avoid writing as women constructed by patriarchy, or avoid writing like men in the service of patriarchy? How do men prevent themselves from writing angrily about women and pompously or egotistically about themselves? In A Room of One’s Own Woolf demonstrates the turgidity of the male sentence.”

“The strength of language and form as a means of realising Woolf’s androgynous vision lies in the fact that “masculine and feminine can be exchanged, or travestied, because words can be.”

Dec 26, 2009

Vintage Woolf: Selected Letters

“I mean life has to be sloughed: has to be faced: to be rejected; then accepted on new terms with rapture.” ~Virginia Woolf

Letters to C. B.

Why do you torment me with half uttered and ambiguous sentences? My presence is ‘vivid and strange and bewildering’… I shrank to my narrowest limits, and you found me more than usually complex, and contained. Chivalrous as you are, however, you took infinite pains with me, and I am very grateful.

I expect your praise is immensely exaggerated: you (I guess) have so much more of the dramatic instinct than I have that you see it into my scenes. But I take praise very gratefully; long for some assurance that all my words aren’t varpour. They accumulate behind one in such masses- dreadful, if they are nothing but muddy water… I have a blind faith in my power of making sentences presentable, so that I leave bald patches gaily, to furbish up next winter… I want to bring out a stir of live men and women, against a background. I think I am quite right to attempt it, but it is immensely difficult TO DO… you have no notion how pale and transparent it reads to me sometimes – though I write with heat enough.

Letters to H. W.

Aren’t you singularly vain, for a man of your reputation? I should have thought, selling ten million copies in a month, you would have long ago disregarded Virginia – perhaps you have – Perhaps it is only your sublime urbanity, and the quality which I most adore and that is man-of-the-worldliness, that lets her think that you care what she says.

In fact I sometimes think only autobiography is literature – novels are what we peel off, and come at last to the core, which is only you or me. And I think this little book (The Apple Tree) – why so small? – peels off all the things I don’t like in fiction and leaves the thing I do like – you.

Dec 17, 2009

Parking Space

They refuse to rest and keep looking for parking space. They found one, but refused to settle with their first choice and started to search for another parking space. ‘They’ are all inputs that we devour through out the day, combines with the accumulated inputs from the very lengthy knowledge searching process. I doubt they will ever comply to my hiatus command because at night, when you try to rest them, they are too busy cataloging themselves or pairing with other partners. They work swiftly, trying to fit into the correct parking space which generates a very high energy vibration in your brain wave.

I mentioned to Dr. Roy regarding this 'parking space' analogy which is quite burdening and has disturbed my life for the past 3 or 4 months.

Dr Roy: “Etheric June. Etheric!!!”

Ok... I need Proforol!!!


"In its early stages, insomnia is almost an oasis in which those who have to think or suffer darkly take refuge." ~Sidonie Gabrielle Colette

"Insomnia is a gross feeder. It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking." ~Clifton Fadiman

“If a man had as many ideas during the day as he does when he has insomnia, he'd make a fortune.” ~Griff Niblack


"Nothing cures insomnia like the realization that it's time to get up." ~Author Unknown.

Dec 15, 2009

Meredith Dittmar & Megan Whitmarsh

(pencil, marker, gouache & ink on paper)

Q: Let's start with you describing your process of creating a new piece.
A: My process is always changing. Typically I collect images, diagrams, math and words and surround myself with them before I begin a set of pieces - though once I start working I only refer to them rarely. I throw it all into the BRAIN BLENDER and see what comes out.

Q: What are you really excited about right now?
A: The hadron collider. Networks. Fractals. Mycology. Integral theory. Adyashanti. Stop motion. Alpine backcountry. My bike.

Dec 7, 2009


Breakfast at Tiffany

All I need is one large mug of caffeine (preferably an instant 3-in-1) and two to three hours of reading at my favorite corner in my tiny bedroom, accompanied by a second-hand metal desk and books, with a lot of books. This would be my mandatory breakfast routine. Nothing is astonishing as to be self-absorbed with inspiring words in the morning and momentarily vacate myself from actual responsibilities of the days especially working.

It feels so good to be capsulated by wordssssssssss.

Never Ask for Free Trial

Recently, an ungrateful question attacked my mind. “How would it be/feel if I lost one of my senses or any body part that would make be incapable of reading?”

Several days after this ridiculous thought lingered my life, God gave me eye inflammation as a free test. My reddish eyes are painful with a constant aching and I’m now reading (and writing) in mild difficulty, still I can read and write.

I will pray to God, will beg Him to bestow a perpetual ability to read and write. Dear God The Mighty Creator, have mercy on me and please, please, please forgive me...

Dec 1, 2009

To Travese A New Hiway

4 Rules of Discomfort Zone

Welcome irregularity
Revamp orthodoxy
Commercialize taboo
Against cliché

Nov 30, 2009

One for My Baby (Tony Parson)

Eat your cold porridge!

A Chinese expression which means working at something for so long that when you get home there is nothing left to eat but cold porridge. People sometimes give up comfort and pleasure for a greater good. They defer gratification for some distant goals/dreams. Eat your cold porridge now, so that you will have something better tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, or the day after that. Dreams require self-sacrification!

Kontemplasi #1

Segala-galanya dalam dunia penulisan bermula dengan satu perkataan atau falsafah kosong. Jalinan ayat-ayat seterusnya akan menentukan kualiti penulisan, baik atau buruk.

Seterusnya, tugasan 'kotor' yang perlu kita lakukan adalah mendiskriminasikan penulisan baik dan buruk. Ia memerlukan kekuatan!

Nov 28, 2009

Faces of Exploration (by Joanna Vestey)

"To me exploration isn't about conquering natural obstacles, planting flags... It's not about where no one's gone before in order to LEAVE YOUR MARK, but about the opposite of that: about making yourself vulnerable, opening yourself up to whatever's there and LETTING THE PLACE LEAVE ITS MARK ON YOU."

Bernedict Allen, an explorer.

Nov 27, 2009

Anything for Curiosta!

Virgo Malady:
It's very vital for perfectionist to acknowledge her own imperfection.
Trespassing Rule:
Let's embrace our discomfort zone with curiosity and love.

Nov 24, 2009

Think Like Da Vinci (II)

4/7: Sfumato (to willingly accept ambiguity, paradox and uncertainty)

To be a great human being, one should cultivate stumato in his/her daily life. As misery, calamity, chaos, confusion, malicious accusation are parts of our daily routine, one needs to contemplate the opposition of these negative or destructive events. Yes, you can only appreaciate, FEEL and understand the truth meaning of happiness when you contemplate (which originates from curiosity) and spiritually connected to the Higher Source.

Artistic people usually need a spark of conflict in their life because they understand the importance of conflict in inspiring creativity. To silently suffer and isolate themselves from the commonality is a wonderful journey of sfumato. (Taf Teh)

Nov 22, 2009

Think Like Da Vinci by Michael Gelb

1/7: Curiosita (Curiosity)

Curiosity is an initial stage of wonderment. The wondering creates void in our brain circuit and maybe, in our pumping heart. Thus, an act to fulfill the void marked by curiosity will lead to a rewarding learning process. A constant desire to perfecting the body of knowledge may result to a new or phenomenal discovery. However, at the end of the day, it is not the answer (whether right or wrong) that matter. It is the journey itself, the process of finding a sample of right answer that elevate us to be a superior being. Nevertheless, this process need to be carefully accompanied by reliable references and should be followed by self-contemplation. (Taf Teh)

Does complete/right answer exist?

Nov 21, 2009

Hidden Creative Force

Temple of Creative Manipulation
It is a morning capsule that energizes my day
It is an asylum factory that manufactures immeasurable ideas
It is a temple of creative manipulation that resonates my soul
It is an imaginative highway blessed with love
It is a constructive force for a mind stimulant

Puncak Alam: 8 Nov 2009
Note: I made four journeys to Puncak Alam between 1 Nov - 10 Nov (two of them were unnecessary) and fall in love with this unknown route. However, under an intense pressure during the third visit, I ruthlessly sabotaged my visit and started scribbling note, a minor portion was published here. I did enjoy the journey of this unknown route; it was an eye and mind opening experience.

Nov 16, 2009

Untitled #1

Half the world is composed of those who have something to say but can't; the other half is of those who have nothing to say and keep on saying it. ~Robert Frost

Opinion and whining are extremely cheap nowadays. FB sucks!!! ~ Taf Teh

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Nov 14, 2009

Creative Process

The key to being a wonderful writer is not to write. Leave room for God to walk in the room. You just get out of the way. ~Michael Jackson

It is not necessary that you leave the house. Remain at your table and listen. Do not even listen, only wait. Do not even wait, be wholly still and alone. The world will present itself to you for its unmasking, it can do no other, in ecstasy it will writhe at your feet. ~Franz Kafka

Nov 12, 2009

Kapsul Energi

Aku agak perbuatan mencemuh itu merupakan
satu lagi perbuatan yang berseni.
Kau ada daya imiginasi yang berat,
yang membosankan, yang tidak kreatif.

[Wole Soyinka: Pertentangan]

Nov 11, 2009

Pelantar Imaginasi

Fiksyen adalah satu medium
untuk kita meluahkan rahsia
dan menyembunyikan separuh lagi rahsia.
Hidup ini bukan percuma.
Ia adalah kompilasi
dosa dan pahala.
[Taf Teh]

Nov 10, 2009

Kutub Rational

2009 adalah tahun untuk mempersiapkan diri dari segi mental, intelektual, akademik, kewangan, pengurusan masa dan emosi untuk SATU perjuangan peribadi.

Tuhan, muat-turunkan kekuatan.

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Nov 9, 2009

Ideas Factory

There are only FIVE basic notes but their combinations and permutations produce music scores so varied that it is impossible to hear all of them.

There are only FIVE primary colours (blue, yellow, red, white and black) but their mixes and matches produce so many visuals that it is impossible to view all of them.

There are only FIVE basic flavours (sour, acrid, salt, sweet, and bitter) but their blends and mixtures produce so many tastes that it is impossible to savour all of them.

~Sun Tzu

Nov 5, 2009

Dipetir Dali

Dali dan Gala.

Lukisan-lukisan Dali mampu buat saya muntah.
Tetapi, saya amat obses dengan beliau (dan juga Gala).

Katakan Tidak Pada Momentum Selembap Siput Babi

Anda hanya perlu duduk 10 minit untuk minum kopi lokal dengan beliau dan saya pasti, anda akan menikmati alam GILA Dianadi.

Terkini, Dianadi (walaupun sibuk dengan komitmen kerja & Master) akan bekerjasama dengan Azwan Ismail untuk projek Amir Muhamad: Orang Macam Kita.

Nov 3, 2009


Bercakap dengan sungguhhhhhhhhhhhhhh laju adalah kehebatan saya. Di dalam kelas, kadangkala pelajar saya semput nafas seolah-olah mereka yang berlari 4x100. Apahal!

Lain pula ketika menulis. Untuk menulis saya perlu gemuruhkan perasaan dengan inspirasi dan idea. Proses menulis pula membuatkan denyut nadi saya lebih lambat. Gemuruh + lambat??? Ia ibarat enjin keretapi arang batu, amat bising tetapi bergerak perlahan. Tut tuuuuuuuuutttttttt. Dalam kes saya, yang bising jiwa. Yang perlahan, proses penulisan itu sendiri.

Realiti yang pahit, mencari masa untuk menulis telah menjadi satu proses yang amat sukar. Ia sesukar untuk mendapatkan pati oksigen yang perlu digerudi dari dasar laut.

Murdered by Cliché and Abstract

B* asked me to write something on his abstract artworks. I was speechless but eventually wrote something very pretentious.

One day, after being my real self, I text B*.
"It is the cliché in writing and abstract painting that will kill us. They create fake momentum."

Oct 3, 2009


Escapism: Writing fiction is a not-so-peculiar departure from reality. Writer is an exceptional faker, cheater, robber, exaggerator...

Sep 11, 2009

Dunia penulisan Melayu kekurangan manusia-manusia GILA.

Aku suka pabila kamu bersira manis
Aaahhhh, bilakah kamu mahu ikat hati ku ini...

May 1, 2009

Koleksi 44 Cerpen PendekTerkeluar Orbit

Penulis: Taf Teh & D'ianadi
Penerbit: Sang Freud Press
Harga: RM20
Fotografi: Irman Noor
Desain: High Dagger & Kawan2

Apr 3, 2009

Poskan Jiwa Mu Jauh, Jauh, Jauhhhh Dari Poskod Dunia

Dari D'ianadi
1. Bumper 2
2. G.I. Jane 1.1
3. G.I. Jane 1.2
4. Anak Jin
5. Ratu Vampir
6. Bercakap Dengan Iblis
7. Ali & Setan
8. Pontianak!
9. Alien Dari Mars
10. Konzult Miss Zerv
11. Mutan X
12. X-Pidisi Kardigan
13. Kau Boi
14. Girl
15. Girl-Ayahanda-Bonda
16. Kakak Dan Bonda
17. Hadiah Hari Ibu
18. Putri-Girl-Bonda
19. Evita-Valentine's Day
20. Del
21. Euforia
22. Emti Resaikel Bin

Dari Taf Teh
1. Titinada, I Love You
2. Perempuan Semuanya Cantik
3. Paku Yang Jimmi Cabut
4. Hello, Tyra. Realiti Hidup Perlukan Fanta$i.
5. Lipas-lipas Indipenden
6. Dewi ICE
7. Lorna Lokal
8. Bahagia Temporari
9. Air Gratis
10. Mimi Kucing Pondan
11. Campur
12. Lagi-lagi Markus
13. Satu Tribut Untuk Wei Hui
14. Barzakh
15. Taugeh Sifar Stering
16. Peta Dunia
17. Terowong Tanpa U-Turn
18. Suzuki Kompak
19. Kompas
20. Hero Kebal Maut
21. Laci Telinga
22. Tamat Tarikh

Apr 2, 2009

Beli Dua Lauk

DUA LAUK kini boleh didapati di Silverfishbooks, Bangsar & Popular seluruh Malaysia.

MPH Alpha Angle
MPH Mid Valley
Borders BTS
Borders Garden
Kinokuniya KLCC
Popular Ampang Point
MPH Alamanda

MPH One Utama
Borders The Curve
Borders Tropicana
Popular Amcorp Mall
Popular Aeon Balakong
Popular Selayang Mall
Popular Bukit Raja
Popular SUnway Piramid
Popular IOI
Popular Bukit Tinggi

Popular Mesra Mall Kemasik
Negeri Sembilan
MPH Jusco Seremban

Popular Queensbay Mall
Popular Prangin Mall
Popular Tesco Penang
Popular Plaza Gurney
Popular Sunway Carnival Mall
Popular AEON Seberang Prai
Borders Queensbay Mall
Popular Bukit Jambul
Popular Queensbay
Popular Megamall Seberang Penang
Popular Prangin Mall
Popular Sunway Seberang Jaya
Popular Jusco Perdana

Popular JB City Square
Popular Batu Pahat Mall
Popular Giant Tampoi
Popular Summit Batu Pahat
Popular Jusco Tebrau City

Popular Central Square, Sg Petani
Popular Tesco Alor Star
Popular City Plaza, Alor Star
Popular Star Parade A Star

Popular KB MALL Kelantan

Popular Tesco Melaka
Popular Melaka SC

Popular Terminal One
Popular Jusco Seremban 2

Popular Kuantan Megamall

Popular Greentown
Popular Taiping

Popular Centrepoint KK

Popular Bintang Plaza, Miri

Mar 29, 2009

Dua Lauk di Silverfish Bangsar 28 Mac 2009

D'ianadi Ratu Vampir dan semut-semut hitam.

Jan 2, 2009


AWEKS KL. Penerbit Stormkitchen. Koleksi cerita pendek nukilan 17 penulis lokal & luarnegara. Dua fiksyen pendek dari Tifani Teh dalam AWEKS KL: (1) Fatal (2) Surd.

Sinopsis Fatal

Klorox ataupun bonggol jalan hanyalah satu instrumen untuk Adam melihat dunia yang lebih asli.

FATAL merupakan satu konsep percintaan kontemporari. Ia juga merupakan simbol status kewangan anak-anak muda masakini yang belum stabil, dan terpaksa bergantung pada perkhidmatan sms, walaupun untuk diskusi serius seperti memutuskan perhubungan. Seperti komunikasi harian, manusia senantiasa mempunyai ruang untuk menyembunyikan mesej sebenar. Kadangkala, kita terpaksa!

Sinopsis Surd

"Dah tua baru nak pegang gitar. Berangan!"
"Aku nak mati glamor superfisyel!"

Cerita SURD memberi fokus kepada deskripsi ruang dan perabut rumah dalam kehidupan generasi muda yang penuh dengan inspirasi seni dan muzik.

Nota: Tifani Teh telah mengalami evolusi nama. Dalam DUA LAUK, beliau adalah Taf Teh.

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